Hi that is me again. With a new one.

Life begins with your main actress left the scene. It’s a movie nobody wants to watch and only you cry.

Open sea, everywhere is blue and looks like even birds are getting jealous about us. She tried to figure out why her man is silent. She was more exciting than the man. To go new places and new adventures are giving blend to a love. But a thing that women makes perfect is going on her life when something is wrong on her relationship.

A beatiful cruise and continue with a beatiful dinner and turn back to a home. The real fact is a work from a man who loves you like being a mother I guess. Full of love, passion and pain. To think to make that day beatiful and planned It’s details. Oh It’s great. Little note between the beverages in the fridge, a music in the dinner with full of meanings. A red wine. Think about a day with everything is on the dose. The man is with good friends, family and know this things. And loving her. Women feel.

But If the man doesn’t know with who he faced with. The movie starts. Man start to burn.

The people whom I want to spend my life with takes everytime somethings from me. The whom said I love you the most and took the most. To make happy the person in front of you is not the whole thing. Sometimes, you just need to be loved. Not to love. Once the bruise occured, It doesn’t know to stop. The man is in really somewhere in the deep.

The man swallow one more time from his wine and said: We are lucky. To meet somewhow, even we get cold in outside, we have each other to rely on.

He turned and look at the limitless sea and the place where the sky and earth get together and thinks that the moment will go on forever.

Like everytime, women handle everything.

And this time too.

Get up little prince.

You smoke 1 more pack a day

You start to like wine

You have creativity; more.

You don’t drink. You drink less. I mean alcohol.

You have better exams.

You don’t get tired because you sleep so much.

You forget.

You fall in love again.

but you get ashamed.

I love you. And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we’re great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I’m sure that’s what you’ll call it. I love you. Very, very simple, very truly. You are the-the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being. And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is-is-is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider. But I had to say it. I just, I can’t take this anymore. I can’t stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can’t-I can’t look into your eyes without feeling that-that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can’t talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. And I know this will probably queer our friendship – no pun intended – but I had to say it, ’cause I’ve never felt this way before, and I-I don’t care. I like who I am because of it. And if bringing this to light means we can’t hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But God, I just, I couldn’t allow another day to go by without just getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And, you know, I’ll accept that. But I know, I know that some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there’s a moment of hesitation, then that means you feel something too. And all I ask, please, is that you just – you just not dismiss that, and try to dwell in it for just ten seconds. Alyssa, there isn’t another soul on this fucking planet who has ever made me half the person I am when I’m with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it is there between you and me. You can’t deny that. Even if, you know, even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I am forever changed because of who you are and what you’ve meant to me, which – while I do appreciate it – I’d never need a painting of birds bought at a diner to remind me of.

Well. I am a guy. At least I feel like that. (!) Phsyically and mentally I am a guy. Yes. So I can write about us. Here is guy types.

Juicy:

This kind is the most popular. They can called as US type. The popular culture, R&B can symbolize them. You can understand this kind of people by 1000+ friends on their Facebook. They call theirselves sympathic, friendly or popular. It’s their motto to try to flirt every girl they saw in the club, in the places whereever they are into. They are generally hang out with their 1-2 buddies. When they enter the place they say hi to everybody. You can call them “boybitch” It’s the same when you are a girl and you are bitch. He is a boy but he is bitch. Bitches (girl ones) are well with them. Generally near them, you can see a lot of bitches. (girl ones) but their targets are generally not the bitches ones. That’s why the bitches near them are usually called by them “a buddy” But they’re both bitches. Whatever.

Metallica Type:

This kind is living with their ipods. Sharing rumbly musics on Facebook and after said to people the meaning is under the stoned soloist “noise”. This kind is still in the high school, still have somethings not solved from their childhood. Unnecessary revolution needs in their blood. They are trying to show theirselves which are they couldn’t show by their speeches, characters or behaviours. They put theirselves in one strong niche community and there is no need to improve theirselves. My music is symbolize me thing is on. Stay away , or you find yourself listening from your ipod the same musics.

Ambitious:

The mankind who you want to be marry All marks are good, crazy ambition on the lessons. Trying to do their best on their lessons. Planning everything, even the marriage time is exist on their life. You can understand them on Facebook; by 1.909.399 line status update and always update about their successes on the lessons or on the projects. Probably yes; they will be successfull in their future life. This kind of people; directing the world. That’s why It’s getting not liveable day by day.

Shy Type:

The kind a guy who are always afraid to take the first step. One move or just one word can make think for years. Their relationships are divided to 2. One with a girl. And one in their heads. This kind of guys; can be ok with their same type. If they are with bitches life become hell for them. And generally the second happen. For every stupid shy guy in the world, there are 1 bitches. It has to be prevented and bewared to get into the society for that kind.

Every Type:

Mixed type we can say. Mixturing of every type. Smetimes funny, sometimes shy, sometimes juicy, sometimes put theirselves into one community and live for it. Sometimes successfull and sometimes “a freak”. So less, don’t let them out If you find.

Rich:

Father’s money. Cars, fancy dresses. Their money can make them “omg!! he is so cute!” Girls can feel theirselves successfull and attractive when they are with that kind of a guy. But for sure; all his mind is targeted for one thing; your pussy. Yes, yes you are beatiful villager.

Next week; girls types which is funnier. Happy Sundays.

I continue to my “Massacre Series” I started with Khojaly Massacre on 5th of March. That’s the second one. “A Srebrenitsa Massacre”

Srebrenitsa Massacre or Srebrenitsa genocide is an incident that during the Yugoslavia War between 1991-1995, Srpska Republic Army enters the town Srebrenica and on 15th June 1995 under the name of Krivaya 95 Operation, under the command of general Radko Mladic, they killed approx. 8300 people. It’s proven by the documents so many of them are children and women. Beside Bosnian-Serbian Army; also the special force “The Scorpions” are joined the operation. They were Serbian special force. Even the fact that United Nations announced that It’s a secure are The Srebrenica, It doesn’t prevent the situation which happened. Also there were 400 Netherland Army soldiers.

Srebrenitsa Massacre is a genocide proven by documents after the II. World War occured.

Development of a Genocide:

After the collapsing of Yugoslavia, Serbs begin genocides in Bosnian Region. For that reason, United Nations made an intervation on 1992. Srebrenica was the one of 6 secured places. Before the war the population in the town was 24.000 During the war, approx. 60.000 refugees came there. The place is a center of diseases and starvation. The guns which held by Muslim community there taken by United Nations by the rules of being secured.

When Muslims wanted to take their guns back because of the attack Radko Miladic commaned Serbian forces, It’s rejected by Netherlands Army general Thomas Karremans.

on 11th of June, Radko Mladic entered the town which adjusted from guns without any resistance. Serbian Soldiers killed Muslims on the roads on the mountains. They seperated them to the pieces to prevent id definition.

After the war, there was a video teyp appared showing that Radko Mladic giving presents to the Dutch General because of the reason that Netherland Army is discharged the town.

Lahey Courte of Justice decided that It was a genocide after the war. And they announced that Serbia can’t be blamed because of it. (Whole Turkey can be blamed “Armenian Issue” for sure )

The people who are responsible about genocide

Radovan Karacic: He got caught on 21st June 2008. He will be on court soon.

His Arguments:

• West is responsible of Yugoslavia’s Seperation. (I agree)
• Western Countries plans seperation of Yugoslavia and Bosna War.
• USA and Iran support Bosnian Muslims guns even an embargo is exist.
• To prevent exaggeration of the number of deads in Srebrenitsa, DNA Tests must be used.

Momcilo Krasnik: on 27 September 2006, he punished 27 years in prison. After It reduced to 20 years on 17th March 2009.

Bilyana Plavsic: By The UN War Guilts Court; he is a war convict. She punished 11 years after she released. Because of her ilness and she finished her 2/3 of punishment.

Radko Mladic: He is still not found. He is being searched from 22th December 1996. Serbian Government against that he is still in Serbia and It’s proven by strong documents. After the photos which taken in the wedding on 2009 released on the media, Serbian Government accused by UN, USA, EU and Bosnian Herzegovina. If he catched, It will also affect the Serbian Geovernment because of his possible confessions so Serbian Government is hiding him. (My thought)

Zdravko Tolimir: He is under arrest since 31st May 2007.

Hi. Beautiful, a little bit cloudy Saturday today. I like Saturdays so much! Not like the last semester, It’s a day for me to get relax. Last couple of months all days were like a holiday. But now holidays are holiday so I enjoy proper days.

Those entries are really helpful for me to realize what is going on around me and myself and by this; I can see where I am on the process. By all the entries I enter, at the end of this education year; I want to write one big entry which summarize what did I do September 2010 to June 2011. I excited to be in willing to write that entry. It’s important. September to June. That duration is the duration which I will never forget. My so small audience know this. Lithuania baby!

Nowadays; I am a fixture of the university Everyday school. Before 15 min. of the lesson begin. I am right there in the first place. Life is strictly in your hands. If you took seriously. If you want to get, If you want to do. You can make, there is no other facts affect it. Yes maybe some circumstances are exist that can make you break-off the life and get drunk and cut yourself but It’s an easy way. (yea, so easy!) To prevent this situation all you can make it, going to school and not to think the things which can make you feel desperate. There is one quote I like nowadays: “Do your things, don’t be stupid.” That’s true, otherwise I am writing poems but people doesn’t like my face.

Some things are inside my brain is fixed. They are always there on the place. And by this fixed things, I am living my life. Those things are there, like a question will be asking to the teacher, like a will be solved soon, like you circle the question and say “I think I will ask to one of my friend”. It stays there and I continue to my things.
For 1 month, I am clean It’s cool to say like this. But When I look at my life entirely; It’s extraordinarily normal. I am living the processes really on time. Those years are years that which has to make me feel I am the biggest lover in the world and I am the most heart broken person :’( And those years are the years that I don’t know what to do about next years. It’s like I don’t know where I am on the line. And I directly feel like that. When you are on your 20′s you feel like that. And I see I am one of those people, who live kinda’ like this times before. Everything is normal. Everything is on time. It’s time to see the decisions are made for one time. And on them; we have to think a lot. After It became our life. After we can find ourselves near suicide. Then we slept and there are nothing so much important to cut off your life. The people we believe, the values we believe, the values which are taught to us the most important. Are not so shiny.

Less times to the exams, internship process are moving forward day by day. Line is getting clear. Everybody is making the things which are expecting from them. No surprise appeared. Musics are still good. I still enjoy Burger King. I can feel excited about the beer, still. And I still make people laugh when I am in my mood.

And thank you people over there for their bloody supports to change Özgür Yavuz.

Thank you.

No entry without music for sure; my French teacher told me I have nice accent! Yeyyyyyyyy! Alors on!

We’re a story with you; finished half
Walking to different ways that’s life
You flew away to the farest like bum wind
I will live like pale rose
If It’s living
lie for the different nights
get up for the different mornings
to think love our mistakes
get distract in other skins for nothing
and get hurt secretly
know this forever
I kept the most beatiful place in the memories
In my plundered heart

In my hairs, one by one.

Imaginary Forces – Boardwalk Empire from Imaginary Forces on Vimeo.

Hi!

Sometimes my Google Chrome doesn’t work and it really affects me when I want to research something on the web. I was reading news on LeMonde, The Guardian or ntvmsnbc.com and I clicked one link and it doesn’t appear. I made f5. and f5. It doesn’t fucking work. This is my biggest problem sometimes. If I click a link. It must open.

Prince William and Kate Fucking Middleton (ups! MI5!) will marry on 29th of April. Whole Britain is so excited. They thought whole fucking world will care about their hilarious stupid wedding. They make holiday that day. They invite adorable gay Elton John and superstar footballer David Beckham to the wedding but not Sarkozy I wish to see Sarkozy in the wedding. I love him. And they also invite grocer and the greengrocer of the little town of the bride; Berkshire. The hottest example of populism. With my biggest compliments; We don’t care guys. I wish to see their sextape. I am willing to see how Prince fucking.

6 SAS Commando catched in Libya. They sent by United Kingdom to negotiate some facts with the rebels. And rebels catched this special forces. In the web; voice record of one executive begging to the one of rebelians about let this “special forces” free. After Wikileaks and this US and UK can kiss my ass.

Salute those people who helps me with their great advises.

Still can’t sleep. **